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12 months ago i sat here contemplating my trianing program for my big goal to run Frankston to portsea and then i headed out for my first long run toward it 34 km. Yes i built up to that lol.
Now exactly 12 months later i sit hre contemplating if i will be able to continue running at all.
as most of you know i have a rough year and over the past couple of months i have struggled to get my running back on track. Ive been getting increasing more fatigued even though im doing less than ever had pain in my hips that has moved to my back well this week the poop really hit the fan.
Ive had high bp forever and was told that through diet and exercise it should help so i lost 55kg took up running well i saw anew doc this weeks. she works with both western and eastern medicine anyway my bp was 200/ 120 she wanted me in hosptal that day i sad no. she perscribed a bp med and an antibiotic as she thinks my pain is from a viral infection..
anyway 24 hours later im back in her office so tired heart racing 100 per min my resting is usually 43. chest pain muscle cramps the works she orders n ambulance and i find myself in an emergency room..
after being pumped with drugs they started an ecg which was clear and took blood which was clear after two sets of tests they sent me home with a refferal to a cardiologist and after being seen by 2 docs and the registrar they still weren't sure what caused the pisode.
My doc did say it could be my body reacting to the bp dropping..
Anyway now im sitting here debating what to do next. Yes my bp needs looking at yes i should go have stress test and find out if there is an underlying cause of my bp being so high.. while i was in emergency the doc thought he heard a heart murmur so thatalso needs to be investigated..
will i be able to continue running i dont know the fatigue is stopping me at the moment anyway i feel like crap i feel toxic like my body is screaming for help but i dont know what it wants.. My doc has arranged for me to see a naturopath tuesday..
Should i see a sports doc to get my rfferals soemone who understands how important my running is to me or should i stick with this doc for now..
I dunno. things have spirraled out of control and i feel like im loking down the barrel of a gun i dont know which way to turn i eat a very healthy diet 99% of thetime. I dont drink smoke do drugs never have wel i smoked for like a year as a teenager.
My family history is bad for hypertension and heart disease but both parents were overweight and ate poor diets so does that count..
Anyway i hate being in limbo and it seems everywhere i turn theres just one more thing wrong with me its as though my body is slowly shutting down giving up and i dont know how to turn the process around.. Im not doing any exercise at the moment to scared until i see doc wednesday so thats adding to my feeling lousy i walk but to me thats normal anyway.
18 months ago i was overweght depressed and had all but given up then i slowly pulled myslf out of that hole and found running running was like an awakening for me i found myself i found freedom strength passion i made friendships sronger than any ive had before running is everything to me. But like the movie awakenings is this time now coming to an end im finding it incresing hard to stay up im putting on weight im tired i feel like im in reverse slowly heading back to wher i started and its scaring me
Edited by staypuff, 20 September 2008 - 06:43 PM.
Good for you StayPuff! I think I said to Frank in another post (about his bruised and battered foot) sometimes a little time out makes the passion and joy of running even stronger when you are able to return (or something like that).
